Praying friends,
Elders from our church and other area churches who support us in ministry will be meeting at our house tonight at 7 PM for an anointing service for Cassie.
Kris and I are believers that God can do all things. But we also know he allows things for reasons that we do not understand. That's all the "stuff" of life. Our struggle to reconcile the truth that God is glorified thru our adversity with the truth that God can indeed do all things reminds me of a poem I remember reading in College on the back cover of the now-defunct "His Magazine". It went something like this:
I would like to buy $3 worth of God, Please.
I don't want enough to help me love the unlovable.
I want convenience, not transformation.
I want a pound of the eternal in a paper sack.
I would like to buy $3 worth of God, Please
Well, tonight, we want to let God out of that sack. We are fully prepared that God will continue to allow Cassie to suffer the way He has. But we want to make sure that we also don't box God in by our lack of faith that He can heal her if it be His will. Bottom line: We want to offer her to God.
For those of you who are local, please understand that we would prefer to keep this limited to a few elders and ministry leaders. On such short notice, I'm not sure who will come. But we would also be happy to have anybody who would like to come by following the service, say after 8 pm for a sort-of "Open House."
Cassie's situation has not changed much. She is still having seizures regularly. Lately, some of them have become more violent. The area where she is having her seizure activity is the same area that controls the imagination and dreams. The best way to describe some of her seizures are simply "Living nightmares." Other times, they are more subdued. She also has the type where she stares off for some time.
Please also pray for more work for me. Our support level is down quite a bit, but we are adjusting well to a "tentmaker" role in ministry. The more computer work I can do, the more we can keep our schedules flexible for Cassie. She has occupational therapy, physical therapy, and now we have put her back in the School District's home school program, where she will be taking two classes.
As of today, Cassie finally up to the dosage level of #1 of the additional medications they wanted her to try. After some time on this med, if it doesn't work (Read---> It Isn't working!!!) they have another one for her. It sounds really bizarre, I know. But I think they want her to try "whatever's left in the anti-seizure arsenal" before they talk about a second, more radical brain surgery.
God is Good. All The Time.
Gary
